read it and weep

as of today, i am officially 30 weeks along and our guy is more active than ever! literally, i feel his, now huge, movements all day long (and sometimes all night long). it would be a total understatement to say that my mind is almost entirely taken up by thoughts of him....planning for him, dreaming about him, yearning to finally hold him in my arms. i've been thinking a lot about what it means to become the mama of a little man. how much i don't know. how much i'll have to learn. how much my world will change. all the things i'll want him to know and be and have. and how gigantic of a responsibility it will be for chris and i to show him how to be strong and independent, yet sweet and kind and gentle. i sometimes can't even believe that we were chosen to do this, but at the same time, am so grateful that he picked us.anyway, i came across this blog post written by a fellow blogger, What It Really Means To Be A Little Boys Mama, and i felt like i had to share these beautifully written words. (i really did "read it and weep" at my desk while i probably should have been updating work presentations. what do you want from me? i'm pregnant and emotional.) they expressed so much of what i am looking so forward to, yet fearing at the same time. this quote from her about killed me, "Being a little boy’s mama means hearing phrases like, “Boys belong to their future wives, girls belong to their moms forever” and dying a little inside." while this one made me crave this sweet time that i know is coming just around the corner, "Being a little boy’s mama will change you — harden you in some places, soften you in others — but will ultimately give the sweetest memories of when, for a brief period, you were everything to a sticky-faced little man."being a mama of a little boy will really be such a learning experience in love. i hope i will do it justice.